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Being Productive and Safe

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With the uncertainty of when our lives will return to normal looming overhead, we have to prepare for the what ifs. The initial shock has worn off and its time to kick into high gear and formulate plans that will bring in extra streams of income. What are some of your interests? You may enjoy writing as I do, you may have a wealth of knowledge about a specific subject and can charge for consultations. How about running your own business where the investment to start is minimal? The first step is figuring out what you're good at and then you can brainstorm how to bring your idea into a moneymaking opportunity. There are plenty of companies recruiting for everything from selling CBD products to being a credit referral agent. There's definitely a wide range of companies to choose from. You have to read all of the fine print and ask questions to see which company would be a good fit for you. Once you join a company, familiarize yourself with the products and services being offere...
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MOVING RIGHT ALONG

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If you do the same things day after day, you'll get the same results day after day. I've always heard people say this all throughout my life but never paid much attention to those words until now. As I went into work night after night, year after year without any significant changes in my life (other than the rapid decline of my health), I knew something had to give. I became angry and hard to get along with. When my off days were up and I was due to go back to work my entire demeanor changed, my husband knew exactly what was wrong with me everytime it would happen. He knew to steer clear of me and not to say too much. Peace was non existent, I was down right miserable with my life. I used to jokingly say, "my regular job is stopping me from pursuing my dreams". Although it was said jokingly, this was the honest truth. I was too tired and run down from working to pursue what my passion was. Feeling suffocated by life, I started having anxiety attacks and crying spells...
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SITTING STILL

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Have you ever felt like there are not enough hours in the day to get everything done? That's how I'm feeling these days. While I do realize there has to be a healthy balance to working, sleeping, family time etc., I also have the drive to continue on pushing myself when I should be getting rest. Ahh if I could just snap my fingers and my thoughts became a reality, that would be a dream come true for sure! I'm appreciating the process though of learning what works and what doesn't. I'm learning more about myself each day by sitting still. By sitting still I mean, taking time out of my day to sit in  silence, relax and reflect upon yesterday. While reflecting upon yesterday, I'm paying close attention to how I felt. If I'm not liking how I felt yesterday, I brainstorm what I can do today to make things better than yesterday. Sitting still in silence was a struggle for me at first. Feelings of guilt and anxiety crept in and I had to figure out why. I was so use...
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Don't Take it for Granted!!

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I woke up this morning grateful and reflective of the many reasons I have to be grateful. The fact that I woke up in my right mind is a blessing which I don't take for granted. Today is my 45th Birthday, I'm grateful to be here writing this blog. Sitting in my recliner, relaxing while listening to the trickling water from my fish tank, watching the fish swim, I am grateful. Watching my cat Oreo run around wildly, jumping up towards the fish tank, I am grateful. I have learned throughout the course of the year to not take anything for granted. I never gave much thought to being able to smell and taste until I lost the ability to do both. The same goes for me not giving thought about being able to walk unassisted. I never gave it much thought until I nearly lost the ability to walk. The sounds from my fish tank and being able to see the fish swim around may seem like small things, but to me they're huge. I take in the sights and sounds and am thankful for being able to ...
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Being Consistent and Accountable

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Being consistent has  been an issue for me. I will start 10 projects at once, get frustrated and  discouraged then say to hell with them all. I realize that this is an area I must work on to progress to new levels of achievement in my life. My thoughts were different while in school to attain my bachelors degree. I was able to focus and remain consistent  because school was something I knew I had to be serious about, I didn't have any thoughts of throwing in the towel. I wasn't going to waste money either! I did however, downgrade from the degree I initially started pursuing, to one that would let me graduate sooner. This blog is one of the ways I'm holding myself to being consistent. Once I have a following, my followers will hold me accountable and I wont feel so comfortable throwing in the towel. I know there are many who can relate to my issues and I'd like to share my struggles as well as triumphs. I will be addressing my battle with being overweight in the days ...
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Settling In

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It's been a few weeks since I quit my job and I'm finally feeling less anxiety about it. I've had more than enough time to evaluate the state of my life and what needs to be done moving forward. I'm learning that it's ok to not be on the go all of the time. I'm learning it's permissible to drop off of the map to heal, regroup and recharge. Feeling guilt over quitting, I realized was more about others people's perceptions about what I should be doing. Living up to other people's expectations is not my goal. Living life healthy and  being at peace is the goal. I've sacrificed my peace and health for too long, but no more. As selfish as it may sound, It's all about Melanie. Don't get me wrong, I'm not walking around with my head in the clouds ignoring people, but I am giving my attention to those things attention worthy and leaving the messiness of other people's lives to them to fix. I'm getting better at delegating and direct...
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What If ?

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Do you ever sit and wonder what if? What if I had made better choices throughout my life, where would I be now? I sometimes sit and wonder what on Earth were you thinking Melanie!? Some of the things I've gone through, I look back on and cringe. Some of the things I had going on would have fit right in with the Jerry Springer show. I am however thankful that I can acknowledge growth throughout the years. I'm now able to realize the dysfunction I was once a part of and continue to work towards being a better me. Everyday is a challenge, I am faced with hard decisions because of decisions that were made while in a dysfunctional state of mind. What happens when you have clarity and you've outgrown the people who you've picked up along the way during your journey? What if you realize after years of marriage, your spouse wouldn't have been someone you'd even date had you not been in a dysfunctional state of mind? Sitting and thinking what if is easy to do but the ...
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