MOVING RIGHT ALONG

If you do the same things day after day, you'll get the same results day after day. I've always heard people say this all throughout my life but never paid much attention to those words until now. As I went into work night after night, year after year without any significant changes in my life (other than the rapid decline of my health), I knew something had to give. I became angry and hard to get along with. When my off days were up and I was due to go back to work my entire demeanor changed, my husband knew exactly what was wrong with me everytime it would happen. He knew to steer clear of me and not to say too much. Peace was non existent, I was down right miserable with my life. I used to jokingly say, "my regular job is stopping me from pursuing my dreams". Although it was said jokingly, this was the honest truth. I was too tired and run down from working to pursue what my passion was. Feeling suffocated by life, I started having anxiety attacks and crying spells. I felt trapped in a vicious monotonous cycle and didn't have the courage to free myself .
Pain had to be the culprit to make me change what I was doing. It got too painful to go into work so I had no other choice but to stop working. During this time, Ive been able to breathe and relax while working towards my dreams and things that make me happy. While pursuing my dreams I have to realize that this was a process, a lengthy one at that I had to be forced into. Some people take the leap to change their life on their own without having to be run down and in failing health. Be one of those people, know when enough is enough, know when your soul is crying out for more, recognize the dreams you have fading into extinction while you're fulfilling someone else's plan and making them rich. My mindset has changed, I can think clearer, my knee is getting better and I know that there's more to come.. As always I'm a work in progress and this is Project Melanie