I LET GO!!

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Today I did it, I let go. I let go of my full time job of 4 years.This was a hard decision that I had been struggling with for some time now. Instead of focusing on my health, which seemed to always take a hit after working consecutive nights, I worried about how to make ends meet. I lost sight of ME, I was working in pain, barely able to walk or stand at times and I had to look deep and ask myself why I'm holding on. What was I really gaining from working in pain and while sick? Security and of course income are the obvious answers for continuing to work in my condition. I liked being in control in a sense, I knew exactly what was going to hit my bank account bi weekly and planned my life accordingly. Everything was routine and honestly I didn't welcome any upset to this routine...at first.

Having a Faith filled background, I realized that God is aware of every need that I have and he also knows the pain I've been working in. It was time for me to step out on faith. No more of me being in control but letting God lead me and knowing he wont lead me wrong. Stepping out on faith is just like a baby learning to walk, they have to have that confidence to take that first step, and then another and then another and before long they're walking without falling down and walking confidently not needing to hold on to anyone.  But the key is , they had to take that first step! I let go of the routine and being in control and am welcoming to the new beginnings and adventures that are destined for me. I feel relieved and like a weight has been lifted since leaving my job. As always, I am a work in progress and this is Project Melanie.

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