Learning to Rest

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Now that I am no longer working a full time job my brain hasn't fully processed it yet. I'm so used to the routine of being up all night long, sleeping most of the day, running the kids around and then back to bed before work at 11 p.m. Even though I am working on a few projects while at home, the feeling of not being obligated to work outside of my home is new and weird. I must keep things in perspective and remember I am to be resting and healing not finding more things to involve myself in. I also have to learn that me needing rest and rejuvenation isn't a sign of me being weak it's a sign of me being strong for everyone else around me for way too long. The people who are always pillars of strength for everyone else are often left without the same support they give. At the end of the day when all the advice is given, all of the fires have been put out in the lives of everyone else around me, where am I mentally and emotionally? Drained and depleted yet ready to do it all over again the next day, that's how I've been surviving.

I made a few people mad today but guess what? That's not my problem. Call me selfish or whatever, but the word NO is becoming my best friend. I'm learning to rest, learning to not answer phone calls and texts from those I know have a regular routine of needing me to be their everything. I'm learning it's OK to let people fall on their face to teach them, instead of me always being Johnny on the spot to bail them out of trouble. As the days go on I know I will be more at ease with resting and getting myself and health on track without feeling guilty. As always, I am a work in progress and this is "Project Melanie"

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  1. Nicole J. ButlerOctober 9, 2019 at 11:11 PM

    BRAVA! These are tough lessons to learn, but the people who care about you WANT you to take care of yourself. And "NO" is a full sentence. <3

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    1. MelanieOctober 10, 2019 at 8:32 PM

      Thanks for reading! No is definitely getting easier and easier to say by the day

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